Forgive me if this post is silly, BUT
I've always passed every health check easily whether its a Civil Aviation Authority medical, a screening at the health centre, or going to give blood. That is until I went to donate blood this time and they refused the donation because my haemoglobin level was too low and giving a pint of blood would have left me anaemic. The nurse told me I'm perfectly well and healthy but just not fit enough to give blood right now and to leave it for six months. Well I felt really fit and healthy until I went into the donor centre but now I can hardly eat or sleep and can't concentrate on my work as I have convinced myself of the possibility that the unexplained fall in haemoglobin since my last medical could be caused by an early stage cancer starting somewhere in my gut causing slight blood loss by internal bleeding but so far no other symptoms. I feel I've just got to go to the doc and ask for further tests. I've always assumed it was God's will that so long as my wife is here I would continue in exceptionally good health for my age in order to be able to care for Ann, but suddenly for the first time I am fretful as to my own mortality. Not helped by the fact that a friend of my own age has just been diagnosed with terminal cancer, when he went to see his doc about what he thought was a hernia. Others here must have come through this point in life too, when for the first time in their lives you stop to consider the possibility of serious illness or death. Please tell me how I can expel these morbid thoughts from my mind and get back to normal life and let any necessary tests and treatments take their course without worrying about the eventual outcome.