The Kilt Kops

[Bugbear]

Maybe I shouldn't say this. Maybe this is a passing thought that I will disagree with in a few hours. But I'm going to put it out there to see if a few others feel the same.

When I found this forum I learned about different styles of kilts. When I joined I formed my style and I made a few friends. Then I hit a lump.
This beast lifted his head. It was the beast of entitlement.
From there on this forum to me changed. Maybe I dug too deep. Maybe I should have left back in March or April. If I could do it all again I would find how I would like to dress in my kilt maybe collect pics of those who would serve as a example of how I would like to look and I would then RUN! I would take xmts off my bookmark list and I would be happy in my ignorance. I would dress in MY style and I would be happy doing it.

This forum has built me up and burned me down all in one year.

Its like a woman. If you find one you love you marry her. Then you stop looking. If you keep looking at other girls you'll lose what you could have been happy with.

Cowher, I tried to express something a little like that when I was trying to decide whether to continue to wear the tartan kilt. I was told by another member to basically shut up, and it left me reconsidering my place on this forum. I eventually decided to put a hold on wearing kilts and tartan because they are strongly tied to a tradition that I do not understand. I was being given advice by one traditionalist that another traditionalist would come along and refute or dispute. I felt duped for a long time, but, as far as I can tell, this is part of the kilt tradition.

Much of this is implicit learning that is really never spoken, but learned from very early ages. I can never make up for that; it is not my tradition; tartan and the tartan kilt is very strongly entangled with that tradition. There are members who have stated they have a near spiritual feeling of connection to their ancient Scottish ancestors when they strap on the kilt. That is something I can not have or learn. I put the kilt away because I don't understand it. That doesn't mean I will never wear a tartan kilt again, just that it has a connection to something I don't yet understand, and might never understand. I think you are working through your feelings on this, and I'm sure you're frustrated, if not emotionally exhausted,, in trying to express what you're feeling.

If this is my insecure lack of convictions, then so be it.